Omgosh thank you so much. Too sweet.
I am literally the worst person to ask about this. I don’t know the answer. Who the hell knows the answers to these issues? I mean I know they’re never clear yes or no answers but there’s got to be some sort of formula that some genius has hauled up in secret just waiting for someone like me to get rich so I can pay them for it.
Matters of the heart perplex me so, so me giving you advice on your matters of the heart would possibly be disastrous. However, I will say this - if someone doesn’t treat you like the sparkling beauty you most likely are - I don’t think they’re worth it. You want someone who uncontrollably smiles at the thought of you. Who says what they mean. Who replies within reasonable time frames to text messages. Who gets along with your parents and offers to help clean up after a family dinner. Someone who is literally beaming with pride as they walk next to you on the street holding your hand. If this dude is not giving you 100% of what you deserve, I’d recommend running the other way - but I’ve told myself that a thousand times and remained tangled, so I’m not really one to push you in any particular direction. I suppose just try to protect your little heart as much as you can, whatever choice you make.
Ha that’d be me! People always tell me I look sad though, I think it’s my dopey eyes. But then I don’t know if they mean like sad upset sad or sad pathetic. Probs both let’s be honest! Say hi next time cause I’ll probably be desperate for someone to offload some feels to. ;)
Also just a general FYI sorry that I am really bad at answering all my questions here. I am trying. I get too invested in each question and the answers take too long ha. But keep them coming. If I don’t answer it publicly I’ll answer it privately for you. X
I mean, if you’re desperate to do it, that’s all the incentive you’ll ever need. If you daydream about your future studio or about a specific shape you’re going to paint into a painting - if you actually look forward to spending every cent of your hard earned money on art supplies and fantasize about there being more colours of the rainbow, I would say that’s desperate and that desperation will drive you to extremes to make art - thus ‘becoming’ an artist. You have to work exceptionally hard, but most of the time to you it won’t feel like working.
It will be lonely. But you’ll be contributing to something so much more opaque than loneliness, so much larger than your physical being - your ‘legacy’ (ha, I know, hear me out) What I love about making art is knowing I’ve given birth to an entity that is so much of me and yet entirely independent of my physical body and mind. Letting a little segment of yourself out into the world to live and breathe is more satisfying than any other endeavor, I truly believe.